I have entered the world of Wonderland and I am very drunk.
I am lying here awake at 5am, missing you. I keep trying to tell myself it’s for the better. That I am better off with out you. I am blaming myself when yet we are both to blame. I fell in love with you. I was ready to start my future with you. If you would have asked me to marry you I would have said yes. It sounds crazy but I felt like you were the one for me. I felt like we could conquer the world. But I guess the timing just wasn’t right. I want to so badly reach out to you but it’s barely been a day. I can’t talk to you or see you. I can’t see any of your friends or coworkers with out my heart hurting. So many things are now connected to you, disney, marvel, football, food, tattoos. I don’t care about anyone else or what anyone else thinks. I want you. I have always wanted you. No matter how many times you’ve hurt me, or left. I wanted you. I wish you were ready to work on something real. I wish you saw how much I was willing to go through to be with you. You broke my heart and I don’t think I’ll ever be able to get over this. All I can say now is I’m sorry it came to this. I love you.
I wrote this post when I was really broken and I can come back to it now in a better place realizing that I was in something toxic. I was not wanted I was not respected and I was not who I was meant to be, thsnk you for showing me what love is. But also thank you for pushing me to want better for myself.
Should I let him back in?
Anonymous asked: What’s your favorite song?
Currently Baby Blue - Action Bronson ft. Chance the Rapper
I am lying here awake at 5am, missing you. I keep trying to tell myself it’s for the better. That I am better off with out you. I am blaming myself when yet we are both to blame. I fell in love with you. I was ready to start my future with you. If you would have asked me to marry you I would have said yes. It sounds crazy but I felt like you were the one for me. I felt like we could conquer the world. But I guess the timing just wasn’t right. I want to so badly reach out to you but it’s barely been a day. I can’t talk to you or see you. I can’t see any of your friends or coworkers with out my heart hurting. So many things are now connected to you, disney, marvel, football, food, tattoos. I don’t care about anyone else or what anyone else thinks. I want you. I have always wanted you. No matter how many times you’ve hurt me, or left. I wanted you. I wish you were ready to work on something real. I wish you saw how much I was willing to go through to be with you. You broke my heart and I don’t think I’ll ever be able to get over this. All I can say now is I’m sorry it came to this. I love you.